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Oh god who let the crazies out?

"If we didn't believe in miracles, we wouldn't have spent our vacation money to come here," said Sandra Rodrigues of Utah, who with her family has been standing outside the Russell Senate Office Building all week, shouting at senators and displaying signs urging "Stop Same Sex Marriage: It Endorses Masturbation." "If same-sex marriage is endorsed," she explained, "then you're going to have children think it's just another option to have pleasure."


Added Exodus International's Alan Chambers, who said he quit homosexuality 14 years ago: "Our children are being raped every day of school by what's being taught. Are you mad? I'm mad. I'm so mad. God have mercy."


Ah distractions.
 
 
 
 
 
 
[info]dear_dean everyone should go join. Dean gives the best advice.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Stealing from [info]bluediamond421

10 fictional characters I'd sleep with:

1. Dean Winchester
2. Logan Echolls
3. Sam Winchester
4. Dean Forrester (same actor, different character, ha! bending the rules)
5. Craig Manning
6. Simon Tam
7. Mal Reynolds
8. Spike
9. Jayne Cobb
10. Weevil Navarro

This was actually harder than it looks. I would have put Alec but i never seen Dark Angel.
 
 
 
 
 
 
30 Minutes Tatu
(at the Polar Site under 'media')

Absolutely Polar "Playground Love" by Air

Angel by Sarah McLachlan

AU video Plumb

Bed of Roses Bon Jovi

Breakable Fisher

Bring Me to Life Evanescence

Crash Into Me Dave Matthews Band

Creep Radiohead

Erase and Rewind The Cardigans
(at the Polar Site under 'media')

Fall to Pieces Avril Lavigne
(at the Polar Site under 'media')

Fear by Sarah McLachlan

Fly Hilary Duff

Girl Like That by ??

Going Insane Timbaland & Magoo

I'm Not that Girl Polar/Candy

Landslide The Dixie Chicks

Let Me In Save Ferris
-alt link

Like We Never Loved At All ???

My Immortal Evanscence
-alt link
Oblivious Fisher

Obsession ???

One Of My Kind
INXS


On Fire by ??

Polar Credits Dido

Polar Fear

Polecats The Beach Boys

Regrets Azure Ray

Roswell: In Love by ??

Season 4 ???

She's Like the Wind Patrick Swayze
(at the Polar Site under 'media')

Sour Times Portishead

Stand Inside Your Love Smashing Pumpkins
-alt link 1
-alt link 2

Take Me Away By Avril Lavigne

The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars

Uninvited Alanis Morrisette

Waiting ???

With or Without you U2
(at the Polar Site under 'media')

You and Me by Lifehouse

You and Me by Lifehouse (different video)

You're the One That I need by A Decade Under the Influence
 
 
 
 
 
 
The Veronica Mars finale. I am just dead. DEAD!

CW PLEASE RENEW IT! RIGHT NOW!
 
 
 
 
 
 
OH MY GOD. The Supernatural finale? Just AHHHHHH!

I am not gonna get any sleep tonight.
 
 
 
 
 
 
South Dakota passes abortion ban

Wed Feb 22, 10:06 PM ET

SIOUX FALLS, South Dakota (Reuters) - South Dakota became the first U.S. state to pass a law banning abortion in virtually all cases, with the intention of forcing the Supreme Court to reconsider its 1973 decision legalizing the procedure.

The law, which would punish doctors who perform the operation with a five-year prison term and a $5,000 fine, awaits the signature of Republican Gov. Michael Rounds and people on both sides of the issue say he is unlikely to veto it.

"My understanding is we are the first state to truly defy Roe v. Wade," the 1973 high court ruling that granted a constitutional right to abortion, said Kate Looby of Planned Parenthood's South Dakota chapter.

State legislatures in Ohio, Indiana, Georgia, Tennessee and Kentucky also have introduced similar measures this year, but South Dakota's legislative calendar means its law is likely to be enacted first.

"We hope (Rounds) recognizes this for what it is: a political tool and not about the health and safety of the women of South Dakota," Looby said.

"If he chooses to sign it, we will be filing a lawsuit in short order to block it," she said after attending the afternoon debate at the state capital in Pierre.

Proponents have said the law was designed for just such a court challenge.

The timing is right, supporters say, given the recent appointments of Chief Justice John Roberts and Justice
Samuel Alito to the high court. The two conservatives could pave the way to a decision overturning Roe v. Wade.

The high court said on Tuesday it will rule on whether the federal government can ban some abortion procedures, a case that could reveal whether the court reshaped by President George W. Bush will restrict abortion rights.

In 1992, the Supreme Court reaffirmed the right to abortion in Planned Parenthood v. Casey, the last direct challenge to Roe v. Wade.

The South Dakota law concludes that life begins at conception based on medical advances over the past three decades.

Proposed amendments to the law to create exceptions to specifically protect the health of the mother, or in cases of rape or incest, were voted down. Also defeated was an amendment to put the proposal in the hands of voters.

The bill as written does make an exception if the fetus dies during a doctor's attempt to save the mother's life.

Planned Parenthood operates the sole clinic in South Dakota where roughly 800 abortions are performed each year by doctors from neighboring Minnesota, Looby said.

Two years ago, Rounds vetoed a similar bill, saying it would wipe out existing restrictions on abortion while it was fought in the courts. A rewritten bill lost narrowly in the state Senate.

Some legislators opposed to abortion rights questioned whether it was premature to challenge Roe v. Wade, and said litigation would prove expensive for the sparsely populated state. An anonymous donor has offered $1 million to the state to defray the costs of litigation.

http://newstandardnews.net/content/index.cfm/items/2801
 
 
 
 
 
 
Oh there's a monkey i really really hate.

Stop the clapping people!

LIES! ALL LIES!
 
 
 
 
 
 
I nearly threw up my Egg McMuffin this morning when I read this in the newspaper.

In defense of U.S. wiretaps
Bush again insists he has legal right to surveillance in war on terror, and polls show many back him

At the same time, a new poll released today showed that many Americans back Bush's wiretapping effort - and that nearly half wouldn't mind if their own phones were monitored as part of the anti-terror fight.

HELLO? Americans? What about our right to privacy. The Constitution? Remember it?

God! It makes me sick that King George thinks he's not doing anything wrong and people are still buying into his bullshit.

And now if Alito is confirmed, he'll be there long after Bush is no longer president. Seems that John Kerry is finally growing balls and is leading a filbuster.

I am so sick of the religious right. I think i read about a bill passed in some state that said doctor's had to inform women 48 hours before their abortion that life 'begins at conception' and that the fetus can feel and some other junk the religious right spouts.

Why do they care so much about my reproductive organs anyway?

Current Mood: annoyed
 
 
 
 
 
 
I'm alive. uh...yay?

Well since i'm looking for something to update on let's start with the topic of my previous posts: crushes.

Turns out Pat has left. So has the other two maintainance guys i fell for and the new ones arent that cute, to be honest.

Valentine's day is coming up and our store is already advertising it. Blech. I've never received a Valentine from a guy. And candy and chocolate from my relatives do not count. I hope our store doesnt do anything stupid for valentine's day. I refuse to wear anything in the reddish hue area February 14. I'll be the one all in black.

So to recap:

Love life: nonexistant
'possibility of having a real life anytime soon': slim to none
job: well i'm still there, that's a strike against me
family: same as usual.

PS. The name Bob Loblaw never fails to make me giggle. Tee hee!

Current Mood: blank
 
 
 
 
 
 
Bush STFU.

Stupid smirking monkey.

Current Mood: annoyed
 
 
 
 
 
 
Good news. Turns out Pat is indeedy still working here. His schedule was under Admin (the schedules are listed by department. I was looking for him in Front End) and he has off this week too.

He better come back next week. *sigh*

There's this other guy, a maintainance guy of course who might like me but i can never tell the difference between friendly conversation and flirting. He was asking one day what time i leave which was soon, like an hour or two before i got off. He's kind of cute but he has this big holes in his earlobes. At first i thought they were big earrings but no he has holes in his ears the size of like quarters. It's very off putting. Otherwise he's cute.

This is what happens when you've been boy deprived your whole life. You become a whore for guys. I swear i have like 3 or 4 crushes on guys at work. Two of which i know can never happen but still fun to look at anyway and two i'm too chicken to talk to.

Funness I say.

Current Mood: boy crazy
 
 
 
 
 
 
At work I seem to have a thing for the maintainance guys. The first guy Ben, quit one day. I found out that he goes to the local community college that i dropped out of. Then recently was this guy, Pat who i developed a crush on and would stare at and be obvious about. Aleah would encourage me to talk to him but i'd chicken out. Last week his schedule *coughicheckedcough* said that he had a required off all week. Today I went in, checked the schedule and i saw his name nowhere. I panicked but told myself i'd double check when i clocked out. I checked again but didn't see his name. I would have triple checked but i didn't want to linger too long.

No! Please not another one. He was cute. He made work more bearable. I got to stare at him alot.

Stupid boys. Why do they have to be so cute?

Current Mood: crushed
 
 
 
 
 
 
I know I haven't updated in like forever. It just seems like there's nothing to talk about.

So how about work related stuff?

Self Scan 101:

1. Self Scan registers look completely different from regular registers so yes i'm going to be annoyed when you ask if i'm open and then get all huffy because i told you this is self scan.

2. Self-Scan. Pretty self explanatory. So how come people give me a blank stare and I have to further explain that you do it yourself?

3. The belt is very sensitive. If after throwing 3 or 4 items on the belt and realizing that it's not moving don't you think you should get a clue that you should stop doing that? And again, don't get all huffy because i told you you can't throw the things on the belt.

4. I do not have inner working knowledge of the self scan machine. So when you ask why it keeps sending items back don't get frustrated with me. They only taught me what to do if there's a problem.

5. If something goes wrong and it takes longer than you thought dont start *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*-ing and getting all pissy. Machine's freeze, things go wrong. It's not my fault.

6. Don't snap at me if you want to bag your own groceries. I get bored over here and i try to be helpful.

7. Don't start piling your groceries on the belt like this is a regular register. It doesn't like that. And if i'm just standing there watching you put the groceries on the belt don't you think by now you should figure out that this is self scan?

8. If you put an item on the belt and it gets sent back don't get annoyed with me when i go to scan again. Yes, it did credit it and then it took it off. Look at the freakin screen! No i am not overcharging you bitch.

Okay that's all i can think of so far. I'm sure i'll think of other things later. Seeing how i work 2 - 8 today. Dear fluffy lord help me

I started working on my River mood theme again. I love my accomplished picture.

Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
 
 
 
 
Well my PSP free trial expired so i attempted to make a banner on my own. I'm not proud of it but i am proud of the fact that i finally figured out how to get it as a header.

Behold people. [info]lilangel15 I feel like i want to do something with the colors though. don't know what.

I still need to work on my river mood theme. I think i'm only up to the r's (and i'm going backwards). Uh. anyone want to make it for me? *bats eyelashes*

There was a new Reunion episode tonight. This show is such a guilty pleasure. Like it knows it's a soap opera but it's much cooler. We're closer to finding out who was murdered! I hope it wasn't Sam. Kill off model girl who was a bitch to Carla. By the way, yes! She finally got her man. Go Carla.

At least Reunion will be playing while the rest of my shows are in rerun hell.

Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
 
 
 
 
I haven't updated in a while so uh here i am. Hi. [info]bluediamond421 is sending me episodes of That 70s Show. I'm up to season 4. This show rocks.

I'm very uninteresting. Sorry.
 
 
 
 
 
 
The guys on CNN are really duking it out.

Lewis Libby was indicted. One more crack in the Bush Administration.

Current Mood: ecstatic
 
 
 
 
 
 
About a week and a half ago i put in an online application to Loew's movie theater. They called back today while i was at work.

My mom took down the number but i'm too nervous to call back.

While my current job is easy and comfortable it has become bland and boring but i'm too scared to start all over again at a new company, being the new person in a new environment.

I might not even take it. I have to see if it pays better and has benefits but still I have no idea what to do.

God I hate changes. Why cant everything stay the same?

Current Mood: anxious
 
 
 
 
 
 
Pass this on to anyone who hasn't seen the movie.

http://video.vividas.com/CDN1/3929_Serenity/web/index.html

I wonder if this is Universal's next marketing idea to get people in the theatres for this weekend.

Current Mood: excited
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I never posted my thoughts on the movie.

While there has been some lots of conflict over the movie, I think it's good enough that it has made such an impact on people. Of course there are some people who are now wishing for the movie to bomb and boycotting it.

Joss has made a post about it saying that this upcoming weekend will either make it or break it. Will we reach number 1 or at least climb up from our current number 4 position or will we fade away?

spoilers for the movie Serenity )

So that's my review. I am definitely gonna see it multiple times over this weekend. I want to reccommend it to everyone but I have seen on the internet people calling Browncoats rabid and evangelical so I don't want to be accused of those things.

So to quote the man himself:

Why should no-one miss Serenity?

JOSS: Because it’s exciting, funny, scary, surprising, involving and meaningful. At least, that’s the plan. But even if I totally fail, the actors are brilliant and deeply pretty. Plus, hovercraft chase!
 
 
 
 
 
 
Tonight I saw Serenity.

Still trying to process everything. Review later.

Current Mood: tired
 
 
 
 
 
 
Wow i'm up before noon. Well I couldn't get back to sleep plus my dog took up half the bed (and she's a dachshund, they're not very big) and she's my master so I didn't want to move her because she looked so comfy (yes i'm whipped) so now i'm up. And here typing this entry.

Tonight I get to see Serenity! *Squee!* Though I wish now that I bought tickets to an earlier screening. The friend i'm going to see it with tonight is probably working today. Thankfully I have off today. At work I would have been squirmy and unconcentrateable (Yes, that's a word. now.)

I have my red sweater and boots (well they're snow boots but the only pair of boots i own) but I don't have a pink frilly skirt. Plus my mom is mean and won't take me to the store. (Damn my not having a license) It's freezing this morning though. But I want to look like River for the showing! Oh well, being warm is awfully overrated.

Gonna go see Serenity! Maybe i'll go to a morning showing tomorrow since i have work 3 to 9. Anything to help it opening weekend.

Gonna go see Serenity! Yes I am very excited.
 
 
 
 
 
 
In the promo for next week's Veronica Mars is that spoiler ) in the convenience store?
 
 
 
 
 
 
Veronica Mars 2x01 )

You people better be watching Veronica Mars unlike some people *cough[info]bluediamond421cough*. Tape/Tivo/download Lost. It doesn't need the ratings.

Instead of making multiple posts i'll just keep updating this entry.

Current Mood: ecstatic
 
 
 
 
 
 
When you see this on your flist, quote Firefly


Busker: Jayne, The man we call Jayne, He robbed from the rich and he gave to the poor Stood up to the Man and he gave him what for, Our love for him now ain't hard to explain, The Hero of Canton, the man they call Jayne, Our Jayne saw the Mudders' backs breaking, He saw the Mudders lament And he saw the, magistrate taking Every dollar and leaving five cents, So he said, "You can't do that to my people" He said...

Mal: Um...Jayne?

Jayne: Yeah, Mal?

Mal: You got any light you'd like to shed on this development?

Jayne: No, Mal.

Simon: No. This must be what going mad feels like.

-AND-

Wash: We gotta go to the crappy town where I'm the hero!
 
 
 
 
 
 
I just watched SCI FI INSIDE: SERENITY and i am so giddy for the movie now. Oh my dog. It looks amazing.

I'll be going Friday night with some friends hopefully as River if i can manage to find a Riveresque outfit in time.

I could be obnoxious and beg everyone to go see it but not everyone likes everything. Believe me, I tried getting friends to start watching Roswell and I ended up driving them so nuts that they didn't watch it.

So I am just going to say, "Hey, there's a cool movie opening on Friday called Serenity. I think you might really like it."

Movie website located here

And if anyone has any suggestions on how to promote the movie in casual conversations or how you got people interested i'd love to know so i could get people to see it without going "goseeserenityomgit'ssogreat!josswhedonisthedirector!he'ssuchagenuis."

And also, how come there has been no actors on talk shows promoting the movie? Universal has it on a thousand channels but the networks don't want to interview the cast?

Personally, i'd love to see an interview between Jon Stewart and Nathan Fillion.

Current Mood: excited
 
 
 
 
 
 
I got tagged.

List seven of your favourite songs of the moment in your journal and tag seven other people to repeat this process

1) Time by Chantal Kreviazuk
2) Dancing Through Life from the Wicked soundtrack
3) Hero of Canton from Firefly (I finally found an mp3 of it and i can't stop listening to it and giggling)
4) Shameless by Ani Difranco
5) Somebody Help Me by Full Blown Rose
6) Losing My Religion by REM
7) Shiny Happy People by REM

Tagging... anybody who wants to do it. I've seen this around lately so i don't know how many people already done this.


Current Mood: tired
 
 
 
 
 
 
Lost: the second half hour )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Lost: the first half hour )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Well I woke up this morning and my dad already left for work so I couldn't ask him to take Baby to the vet. My mom's home but she won't take her.

Her exact words were, "Something's going to happen to her sooner or later."

I can't believe how cold she is. If I was the one with a lump on my throat i'd be rushed to the doctor even though I have no medical coverage. Well Baby is a part of the family too. She's only 8. She's still too young for something to happen to her.

Hopefully I can get dad on my side. He loves Baby even more than I do. And last night when my mom told him about the bump he said, "dont tell me that" in an upset voice.

He doesn't come home till late tonight so tomorrow morning i'll have a talk with him.

I know it could be nothing but it's better to be safe than sorry.

Current Mood: sad
 
 
 
 
 
 
So it looks like my 8 year old dachshund has some sort of bump around her neck. Dad thinks it's a tumor. It's close to her throat so I don't know if it would be operable. Dad says the operation would probably cost us alot but I don't want to lose my Baby.

I know i'm jumping to conclusions but what else could the bump be? I wish I had a digital camera so I could upload it online.

I don't know what to do. No one else seems that worried though my dad was a little upset but i can't help but worry. Worrying is one of my character traits.




ETA: I can feel tears coming. Good thing she's downstairs on the couch with my dad. If I see her i might start bawling.

It'll be okay...it'll be okay...
 
 
 
 
 
 
Joss has agreed to guest star on the show. We’re firming up plans to have him play a testy, rental car manager in episode six.

- - - - - -

I can't wait.
 
 
 
 
 
 
All the songs on my ipod mini are GONE! Gone Gone Gone Gone Gone!

I don't even have Kazaa, how am i going to get them all back?

*takes a deep breath and tries not to hyperventilate*
 
 
 
 
 
 
Read this!

Warning: *has spoilers for season one of Veronica Mars if you haven't seen it*

a computer update. My computer is yet to be fixed but there's still the family computer i get when the kiddies are at school.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Wow, okay. so much to catch up on.

First of all Supreme Court Justice Rehnquist's passing. Bush can now nominate another judge oh but that's not all he wants Roberts to take Rehnquist's place.

I feel like we're about to take a step back away from women's rights and such.

Second of all. I messed up. I was trying to download season 2 episodes of Tru Calling and the website downloaded all this adware to my computer so either they did something to my computer hardware or i deleted something i wasn't supposed to. I tried reinstalling windows several times but for days it would say 'installing programs' and when my dad did it it only took a couple of hours.

I can get internet explorer because that's already downloaded but I don't have any sound on my computer so i can't watch the last R. Tam session that went out yesterday.

Now my dad might have to pay $99 for stupid software to fix the problem because the bastards over at Dell won't help him over the phone.

So now i will catch up on my friend's page before work.

Current Mood: guilty
 
 
 
 
 
 
THE PRESIDENT: Well, first I want to say a few things. I am incredibly proud of our Coast Guard. We have got courageous people risking their lives to save life. And I want to thank the commanders and I want to thank the troops over there for representing the best of America.

I want to congratulate the governors for being leaders. You didn't ask for this, when you swore in, but you're doing a heck of a job. And the federal government's job is big, and it's massive, and we're going to do it. Where it's not working right, we're going to make it right. Where it is working right, we're going to duplicate it elsewhere. We have a responsibility, at the federal level, to help save life, and that's the primary focus right now. Every life is precious, and so we're going to spend a lot of time saving lives, whether it be in New Orleans or on the coast of Mississippi.

Read more... )

We've got a lot of rebuilding to do. First, we're going to save lives and stabilize the situation. And then we're going to help these communities rebuild. The good news is -- and it's hard for some to see it now -- that out of this chaos is going to come a fantastic Gulf Coast, like it was before. Out of the rubbles of Trent Lott's house -- he's lost his entire house -- there's going to be a fantastic house. And I'm looking forward to sitting on the porch. (Laughter.)

GOVERNOR RILEY: He'll be glad to have you.

THE PRESIDENT: Out of New Orleans is going to come that great city again. That's what's going to happen. But now we're in the darkest days, and so we got a lot of work to do. And I'm down here to thank people. I'm down here to comfort people. I'm down here to let people know that we're going to work with the states and the local folks with a strategy to get this thing solved.
Now, I also want to say something about the compassion of the people of Alabama and Mississippi and Louisiana and surrounding states. I want to thank you for your compassion. Now is the time to love a neighbor like you'd like to be loved yourselves.

Read more... )

And I'm not looking forward to this trip. I got a feel for it when I flew over before. It -- for those who have not -- trying to conceive what we're talking about, it's as if the entire Gulf Coast were obliterated by a -- the worst kind of weapon you can imagine. And now we're going to go try to comfort people in that part of the world.

Thank you. (Applause.)


Current Mood: disgusted
 
 
 
 
 
 
Called my union. Turns out i'm not elligible for medical insurance for 2 years!

Okay I guess I should start by saying I went to the doctor this morning because of the fainting thing. So I had an EKG or whatever that is where they monitor my heart because the doctor said the fainting might have something to do with my heart rate slowing down. So yeah, I had these wires all over my body (my ankles? I can understand my chest and maybe my arms but why my legs?) and then *dramatic music*

They had to prick my finger to get my blood sugar. I am the wimpest wimp that ever wimped. I got so nauseous when they did that and then when they drew blood from my arm i actually started crying. I had to lay down afterwards.

So, the doctor wanted to monitor my heart but that costs like $300 which is why when i got home I had to call my work to see if i'm elligible. My manager said she thought it might be a year but my mom's friend told her 6 months (she has the same union) so we called the Union just to make sure and they said October 1st I have dental and vision insurance but in 24 months I have health insurance and in January I have prescription coverage.

So if there is something off about my heart and we have to go to the Cardiologist it's going to cause a fortune and of course I feel guilty because, hey i didn't have to not have health insurance if I just stuck with college and I feel like my parents are surpressing the urge to say i told you so.

It's just unfair and there are millions of families that don't have coverage. And that is wrong. Why are medical expenses so expensive?

I could quit my job but if i take another job with benefits don't i have to wait 6 or more months to get insurance? I need it now. Cobra insurance is like $800 a month.

Does anyone know of a cheap health insurance?

Current Mood: sore
 
 
 
 
 
 
Calif. Senate Passes Gay Marriage Bill

Current Mood: jubiliant
 
 
 
 
 
 
Wish I could believe that.

Went back to work today after calling in sick Saturday and taking Sunday off so I can go out East with my family to Montauk. Monday they gave me off.

My Evil Bitch Monster From Hell Manager, just Grrr! She makes feel inferior. I was on self scan and when i would ask for help she would make it seem like i was the one with a problem. I had to go ask for help a few times and then things would go wrong on self scan, customers would get frustrated, i would feel stupid... It took me 10 minutes to put new paper in the printer.

But then there's one manager who is nice to me and is always complimenting me.

I feel like if I quit i'd be letting her down. But i can't stand this one manager. And I like self scan but i panic when things go wrong.

What do i do?

Current Mood: depressed
 
 
 
 
 
 
Meh. Next week I have to go to the doctor and get blood work done. Mom said I might have diabetes. Sadly it runs in the family. My grandma had it in where she needed to take insulin. My two (overweight) aunts have it but they just take pills for it.

If i turn out to be diabetic I have no idea how I will be able to live without sweets. Well there's sugar free stuff but is that any good?

I am being punished for my horrible eating habits aren't i?
 
 
 
 
 
 
I just fainted again. I was fine, I was sitting on the computer with my dog in my lap and I got up to go eat breakfast and my foot fell asleep so I was hopping around on the stairs and then my stomach felt sick like I was going to throw up. Next thing I know my mom and dad are holding me up telling me I fainted.

Apparently I don't have a good diet. Not enough iron. Yes, i'm a junk food fiend and the pickest eater that ever ate. So now I have to change my eating ways, eating food I do not like. Pork chops, I just don't like them but that's what i'm having for dinner tonight.

Of course I called in sick to work today. I don't want to faint again. I was nervous about it though because this one girl at work came in sick and they wouldn't let her go home until she threw up in the bathroom and then talked to the store manager because the front end manager is a bitch. This other cashier had poison ivy around her eye and they told her she had to come in or she has no job. But I talked to the front end manager and she told me to get better.

I took tomorrow off too because our family is driving out East for one last hoorah before school starts. Yes, our vacation is driving to Montauk Point. Who needs to leave the island?

So tomorrow I have to go in and copy down my schedule for this week. I don't trust getting it on the phone. This one time I got it over the phone it turns out they gave one day to me wrong and if i didn't check the schedule when i came in i wouldn't have known.

I think they should put it up on their website. Like you can register as an employee and then log in and get your schedule. Think I should suggest it?

And in case you're wondering, i'm fine now. Still pale according to my mother but fine.

I'm gonna go look up what foods have iron in it.

P.S. - G.I.P yo.

Current Mood: tired
 
 
 
 
 
 
Okay, i'm not sure if you guys heard about these but I shall make a post about it.


About a week ago, on IFILM was a video titled R. Tam Session 416.


Then another one came out. Session 1.


And today is Session 22.


We should expect more between now and Serenity's release date.


All three sessions are located here


The Joss confirmation is funny though.


Joss: Trienco, I also deny knowledge of those things that I wrote and shot and am in.


Okay, maybe perhaps I am avoiding my giganormous pile of laundry that needs to be done.


Current Mood: lazy
 
 
 
 
 
 
Lost Season 2 Premiere - Wednesday, September 21st @ 9:00
Gilmore Girls S2 Premiere - Tuesday, September 13th @ 8
Veronica Mars Season 2 Premiere - Wednesday, September 21st @ 9:00

I hate that Lost and Veronica Mars is going head to head this Fall. I think i'm going to watch Veronica Mars and download Lost. Though I haven't watched an episode of Lost in so long I lost interest in the show. I've given up the O.C. and Gilmore Girls i'm only watching because the Rory drops out of Yale storyline is something I can relate to. Plus Luke & Lorelai squee!

Played around with my journal layout. Say hello to River. I'm also creating a River mood theme because *gasp* one hasn't been made yet or at not that i've seen. The picture quality is luh suh since i'm using my computer paint program.

I am so psyched for the movie to come out. I keep checking out Fandango for tickets in advance but they haven't gone on sale in my area yet. I'll probably have to work that day so if they have a midnight showing I am so there.

Current Mood: thirsty
 
 
 
 
 
 
*sigh* Went into work today on my day off since they called and I turned it down yesterday.

I should have asked what i was doing.

I go in to bag and someone on self scan needs help so i ask bitchy manager who's on self scan and she says me. I've been there for like 10 minutes and they never told me?

So to start off with I was angry. Then stuff would go wrong like the printer is out of paper but i didn't know how to fix it and one of the cashiers came over and did it and gave me a look like 'are you retarded? this is easy' but you know, they never showed me!! Every time I had to ask someone for help, bless this one cashier who was a total doll and never got upset with me for coming to her with help but everyone else, especially bitchy manager would give off a bad attitude like i'm the dumbest person in the world.

I wanted to cry. The first few hours i was blinking back tears but then i got into a routine and everything else mostly ran smoothly.

But still, things like the credit card machine and customers asking me questions and me not knowing them and then they get huffy. I want to scream and I try to tell myself it's not my fault but it doesn't work.

My dad told me about a CVS opening near by. Maybe i'll put in an application. I just don't know if i could work for this company with it's bitchy bosses and snobby cashiers.

Current Mood: tired
 
 
 
 
 
 
I don't recall if i talked about crushes in this journal before.

See, this is why tags are useful. Which is why i'm going to go back and tag my entries sometime tonight or perhaps tomorrow, depending on whether this thunderstorm knocks out the power or not.

So anyway, crushes.

Okay. My first crush, a few days after I began working on the front end was on the grocery store manager. Now we have managers for all the different departments. He was manager of grocery items, so you would see him every day in the aisles unpacking a shipment of something or another and stocking them on the shelves.

I've been pretty discreet in the beginning but now I think that he's on to me. I think he noticed me staring and looking every other way when ever we crossed paths (because i would blush red).

It's not that it's a bad thing, I overheard him say he has a girlfriend but i don't want to be known as this crazy stalker person. He's friends with some of the cashiers and other managers so i get paranoid in thinking he's asking who the crazy girl is.

On to crush number 2. He is the maintainence/cart guy meaning he's the guy who cleans up spills and pushes the carts outside. To me this crush is more realistic, sometimes I feel like he likes me back but he's friendly with all the girl cashiers so it's not like a special thing.

Not sure if he's on to me, perhaps i should stop staring down whenever i pass him. It's like doo doo doo, i'm doing throwbacks... oh look there he is! don't stare at him, don't stare at him.

I'm not very realistic in love. It's like i'm 19 and i haven't dated once so I must not be interesting or pretty to guys. Though sometimes i wonder if my being shy makes me mysterious to people or a snob. There's some cashiers there who are very sort of snotty to me. Once I asked at customer service for my purse since that's where i keep it while i'm working and the girl behind me mocked the way i said 'purse.'

I know i can't be likeable to everyone but when one person doesn't like you, you wonder if these other people really like you either. They're just being nice because you look lonely all the time. Happened all the time in high school. "She's sitting out on the bleachers by herself, we should ask her to join our team." and though they were being nice and i was relieved i still felt like they did it out of pity.

story of my life. But i'm not asking you to feel sorry for me, it's just a fact.

Current Mood: blank
 
 
 
 
 
 
So yesterday the manager asked me if I wanted to train for self scan and I said yes.

Because honestly I was so tired of bagging and ready to quit. It's like they knew I wanted to quit but didn't want to let me go so they waved shiny things in front of my face to get me to stay.

She had to put me on the computers so I can do the training program thing (which is on the computer which is a yay) so she told me to go over to self scan and watch the person who was currently there and see what she does.

So yeah, at first it was awkward because i'm too shy to strike up a conversation. And it was boring because we had no one there which I guess is why alot of the self scan clerks are always going over and bagging for other people or chatting up friends. So I was thinking oh god this is boring, why did I take it? I can't just say I don't want it now but people started coming and it got better with the passing hours.

Of course my mind was thinking that it was hard and i'd never be able to do it but as the girl showed me what to do I realized it's sort of easy but i'm still nervous going in today.

I have all these questions in my head:

1) do i wear my uniform in?

I have no idea if i'll be on the computer today so I guess I better but still i don't like the uncertainty.

2) do i clock in?

If I go on the computers do i clock in because i'll be training and i don't know if they pay you for training days. So I have no idea if I go in, clock in then ask what they want me to do today. Or if I go ask them first.

I just don't want to look like an idiot.

3) also, this is a really irrational one but i'm always second guessing myself so i'm afraid i'll go in and then i'll be wrong about them wanting me to do self scan. Again, irrational but aren't all phobias?

Arrrg! It's like, i've come so far in my social anxiety, i haven't really opened up to people except a select few at work but now that i'm doing something new it's like a clean slate and everything i did before doesn't matter. Seeing that I had nothing to worry about doesn't register with me, it's just *PANIC PANIC PANIC* and i'm reduced to my hermit state.

And just thinking about getting a new job brought back the same feelings. It's so frustrating.

It feels like i'll never conquer my anxiety.

And i'm going into work soon.

Current Mood: anxious
 
 
 
 
 
 
Why is it when spiders are long dead I still can't sleep in my room tonight?
 
 
 
 
 
 

On July 25, a U.S. House of Representatives committee held a hearing on whether pharmacies should be allowed to refuse to fill women’s prescriptions.  Anti-choice Rep. Steve King (R-IA) told a witness, who had been denied birth control and emergency contraception by her pharmacist, that she had no “right” to her prescriptions - she only believed she did.  Anti-choice Rep. Marilyn Musgrave (R-CO) told a witness whose prescription had also been rejected by a hostile pharmacist, that her “minor inconvenience” – that is, risking an unintended pregnancy – was nothing compared to the “conscience” of a pharmacist. 



What's At Stake?


Birth Control under Attack in Congress

The right’s anti-birth control campaign doesn’t stop in Washington, DC. 
Across the country, the radical right has engaged pharmacies in its campaign to block women’s access to birth control.  Women like Julee Lacey, a 32-year-old married mother of two and first-grade teacher from Texas, are being turned away by vigilante pharmacists who think it’s their job to dispense morals instead of medicine. 


Now, as many as 20 states officially protect pharmacists like Karen Brauer, president of Pharmacists for Life, who says she’d lecture women customers to get off the pill.  Other states are pursuing an even more aggressive strategy.  Just last month Wisconsin passed a bill to block state universities from filling birth control prescriptions. </p>

Please help us do something. With this and the new supreme court nominee as little as a few months women will have no right over their own bodies.

Tell your Member of Congress: http://prochoiceaction.org/campaign/house_alpha_072605/step1.tcl

Current Mood: I am woman, hear me roar!
 
 
 
 
 
 
Last night I dreamed (dreamt?) that I was a survivor of a plane crash. Apparently it was a school field trip but I didn't recognize anyone from my senior class.

And a whole lot of us survived. And there was like 3 feet of snow on the ground. And I kept watching the news channels to see the reports on it but there were none except the weather channel.

I have no idea what my subconscious is trying to tell me.

Also, in non dream news I have a tan so people can stop telling me I look so pale.

Ugh, my mom's taking me out shopping for new shoes and undergarments. Sometimes I think i'm the only female who hates shopping.

I am off from work till Friday. Usually I work on Thursdays but they're cutting back hours this week. Think they'll fire me before I quit? I am the fastest bagger there. But only because I hate standing at one register so I bounce around so i'm moving and not bored.

So yeah, I have no idea where to apply to. Retail is out, unless it's at a bookstore but i'd like something with benefits since i'm off my parent's plan. Plenty of people survive in the real world without college degrees why cant i?

Current Mood: weird
 
 
 
 
 
 
Since there has been no squeeing on my friends list I take it you didn't see this yet?

http://www.cantstopthesignal.co.uk/trailer/

International Serenity Trailer.

Warning: much more spoilery than the first one

but omg i love it

"No" "Yes" "No" "Yes"

I don't think I can wait till September.

Are they doing any more screenings? Come on NY!

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